More about Me

I am a neonatal nurse practitioner. I love my job.  I love the ups the downs, the dramas and getting to know amazing families. I grow as a person every day that I work and help families through such a precious but difficult time.
 I have always dreamed of having a family of my own. I was blessed with an amazing husband who is truly my best friend.  I was also blessed to be a part of his son's life and T always makes me smile and strive to be a better step parent.  St. Patrick's day of 2012 we were blessed with an amazing little boy named Jackson Cooper. Thus my family was getting a little fuller and a lot more crazy.
The pregnancy wasn't easy.  It seemed like if there was a complication I found it.  Cholestasis of pregnancy (i looked like I was attacked by a werewolf!), gestational diabetes (so much for all you can eat ice cream while pregnant), several preterm labor scares and final premature rupture of membranes at 35 weeks. I should have known that the delivery would be anything but a piece of cake.  So an induction was started, and then well Jackson changed his mind (after over 4 hours of pushing) and because of my history of back surgery ended up undergoing a general anesthesia c-section. John tells the story best he was going back and forth from the NICU to the recovery room and he says I asked at least a dozen times how the baby was.  Finally, after 3 hours I was awake enough from the general to go to the NICU to see my little Lucky Charm. 
He to did things his own way (his dad and my coworkers blame me)  and ripped out his iv and started eating all within 12 hours. He did remarkably well and was home within 48 hours.  Little did I know that the rollar coaster had just begun.  As a Neonatal nurse practitioner, I am well aware of babies and reflux.  I never doubted families when they said it was painful for their children.  However, apparently it was one of many lessons that apparently Jack was sent to teach me.  Five months later we still have good and bad days with the reflux. 
So why a blog?  In part because I have found so much comfort in reading others blogs, in part because I've always wondered about it. 
So there you have it here is the start of my journey to becoming a better wife, stepmother, and mother.